One of Those Days...

So, it's now December 2, 2022 and I'm just now getting around to publishing this. I'm not sure why it has taken so long. Just a quick update...The grandson that was on the way is now almost 2 and another grandson is due any day. Life is good, but God is great!

Thoughts from January 8, 2021:

The title of this post might be a little misleading as it was something I wrote over a year ago but never published. I'm not sure why I didn't publish it then. Anyway, fast forward to today 

Thoughts from December 14, 2020:

Have you ever had one of those days? You know the kind. Starts out like any ordinary day; get up, workout, eat breakfast, take a shower, go to the store. Once back home you start working on something that had been started by your mom nearly 20 years ago. It's nothing monumental, but it brings back memories of her. She's been gone almost 13 years and yet the memories often flood my thoughts. I think the fact that her birthday is on Christmas day and that day is fast approaching doesn't help.

Anyway, as I'm working on this project I'm also texting with my daughters - in - love. One is checking to see if I could watch one granddaughter at a future date and the other telling me something funny the oldest granddaughter said to her. Most of the time, these texts just end, the day goes on, dates are written on the calendar, I get a good laugh, and that's it. 

Today, however, was different. Those simple texts caused a stirring in the chest (no, not a heart attack). As that stirring continued and intensified, it caused my throat to close off (no, I wasn't choking), and my eyes to become a little watery (I really don't have allergies so it couldn't have been that).  The thoughts of the granddaughters and the upcoming arrival of a grandson can sometimes be so wonderful that my heart feels like it might explode. These littles, each so unique, have no idea how much they are loved. 

Okay, you are probably wondering if I have gone off the deep end... No, I haven't. My days are usually full of various activities, mostly at home, but occasionally I'll get outside too. I'm just a deep thinker. I think that because of the way we have to live right now with social distancing, sheltering at home, staying away from our friends and often our families, it has forced us to have to stay home, often times alone and without much interaction with those we are close to. I'm kind of a homebody anyway, but I do like to go out and do things, see things, visit people too. FaceTime and Zoom have certainly helped, but they just aren't the same.

Being alone much of the day, I think about things and people. As I said, I'm a deep thinker. I think about people who have gone on before us and wonder how things would be different if they hadn't left us when they did. Would certain events have occurred if they had lived longer? How different would our lives be? Then I think about our littles and wonder what their lives will be like? Who or what will they become? Honestly, as long as they follow Jesus they can be whoever they want to be. I know I will not be around to love them their whole life, but I will love them my whole life. More importantly, Jesus will love them forever. 

So, back to the beginning. Have you ever had one of those days? I'm sure you have and if so, here's a big hug from me to you to let you know that you aren't alone.